Tuesday, March 11, 2008
My mood has improved marginally.
Yesterday was a really really really bad day. Can you imagine I said fuck in my sleep. Can you imagine how bad my day was for my brain to subconsciously churn out the word cause I'm so upset?
Anyway, onto slightly better things, I dislike JC life. Although its a new experience, I'm not willing to leave my comfort zone. I have never been as miserable/angry/pissed off (take it how you will) as yesterday in my entire life, including last year when I was supposed to be studying away the entire year...
I miss my seniors and my juniors. :( I miss my friends, esp Steph Estee Rachel and Xt :'( I miss laughing during training and having Jude threaten to tape up my mouth and eating Mr Ng's food every holiday training when we go early :( I miss making hellulva noise when I remove sch's lousy hockey pitch green stuff from my shoes by stamping them on the ground. I miss chucking my stick in the D&T room, taking 265 to nyp, making alot of noise in the bus, Daph having to lug her goalie bag up the bus, playing matches when we have the pitch, stopping for Vinnie, having to drag the big red hose and pulling it and stretching it so that we can water the pitch to do penalties.
You have no idea how much I miss those now. I'm actually crying again just thinking about them :( And I just saw a picture of the messy scene outside the D&T room and it's become worse :( Now its like a steady flow from a tap.
So. My mood just changed from pissed to upset. Really upset. Its not PMS. I need to pray more. ;(
ƒrom Alice • 21:41
Yesterday was a really really really bad day. Can you imagine I said fuck in my sleep. Can you imagine how bad my day was for my brain to subconsciously churn out the word cause I'm so upset?
Anyway, onto slightly better things, I dislike JC life. Although its a new experience, I'm not willing to leave my comfort zone. I have never been as miserable/angry/pissed off (take it how you will) as yesterday in my entire life, including last year when I was supposed to be studying away the entire year...
I miss my seniors and my juniors. :( I miss my friends, esp Steph Estee Rachel and Xt :'( I miss laughing during training and having Jude threaten to tape up my mouth and eating Mr Ng's food every holiday training when we go early :( I miss making hellulva noise when I remove sch's lousy hockey pitch green stuff from my shoes by stamping them on the ground. I miss chucking my stick in the D&T room, taking 265 to nyp, making alot of noise in the bus, Daph having to lug her goalie bag up the bus, playing matches when we have the pitch, stopping for Vinnie, having to drag the big red hose and pulling it and stretching it so that we can water the pitch to do penalties.
You have no idea how much I miss those now. I'm actually crying again just thinking about them :( And I just saw a picture of the messy scene outside the D&T room and it's become worse :( Now its like a steady flow from a tap.
So. My mood just changed from pissed to upset. Really upset. Its not PMS. I need to pray more. ;(
